Last night, I had a revelation.
For the past two weeks, I have been in a major funk over Cross Country. I have felt frustrated, therefore putting so much pressure on myself that I eventually broke. I asked myself, “Why am I not getting better?” “Why am I not at the level I want to be at?” “Is this even worth all this effort?”
Recently, I saw a picture of myself running my very first EVER Cross Country meet. I was heading to the finish line, and I actually had a smile on my face. It was here, that I remembered how I felt my first season. I went into it with an open mind, eager to learn more about running. I wanted to be the positive light for the team, always supporting them.
And it was then I realized why I was in such a funk. I had lost my joy, because I got so caught up in the competition of it. I went from having fun with the sport to being much more serious about it. I saw my training as a chore instead of as a gift, meaning my favorite part and motivation in my day.
If the passion is not there, then all of the training will be a waste. You have to have love and care about what you’re doing. Your coach can push you as hard as he or she can, but the effort also has to come from you. If you are willing to try, willing to make mistakes, and willing to work hard, then you will gain so much from your experience! Having love for your sport and believing in yourself are two HUGE components in your success. If you have achieved these two things, then more than half the battle is won!
I run to explore new places and opportunities. I run to be free. I run to feel good about myself. I run to give myself something to believe in. Seeing how much I have overcome in the past years proves to myself what I am capable of. At the end of the day, that’s all that matters. You don’t need someone else to justify for you on what you can and cannot do.
If you feel as though you’ve burned out, not sure if you still love what you’re doing, think back to your past successes. Think back to why you started it all. Think back to your very first time trying out your sport. Maybe then, you will find that fire again. Passion is greater than competition.